ﻬஐUnsettledஐﻬ

RC Gathering

2009-03-31T06:40:00.000-07:00

RC gathering was finally over , though it was not that successful but I'm kind of enjoying it....... Okay, I'm not really enjoy it but at least it's OVER right? haha... Just some advise to u guys, never get a RC member to conduct any gathering or campfire cause what they did were just rescuing people and marching unless paramedics are needed ... lol no offence =x Oops..( Munyee, please don't mad if u happened to read this )

Felt so sorry for Robert Valentino, the knight of the gathering. He was suppose to looked cool but he got executed once he was not needed.. how cruel [HAHA]

Though the gathering was over, it seemed like I've lost somethings as I don't seem like having anymore excuses to meet my friend again. Maybe not so often..sigh

I miss hanging out with my girls...

I miss my school life

I miss my old self

I miss my past

I miss my possession that once I had

and I'll never get it back again...

Him

2009-03-19T09:09:00.000-07:00

It's so hard to hide my feeling no matter how hard i tried. I keep telling myself that I'm no longer have the rights to know things about him anymore and carry on with my life like others tough I really wish to be there for him especially what had just happened recently. But something about him tells me that he don't need my concern anymore and all I could did for him was accepting his decision and stay away from him so I couldn't hurt him so much when he's carrying such burden. It must be very difficult for him and I think no one will understand how he feels now. It tears me up inside when I see how suffer he's. I need to be independent and tough enough to be alone without him. I guess this is the best for both of us. Yong's going Ns tomorrow. I'll definitely gonna miss her a lot. Yong, ''gambateh!!'' and come back soon cause we are going to rock the night like yesterday with Mun Yee (haha)

Somewhere

2009-03-13T09:30:00.000-07:00

It's really a nice place to go but I don't know where's it. Wish to go back there again, it reminds mie a lot of things but it's impossible for mie to go back there again ....

The vague future

2009-03-09T23:35:00.000-07:00

I've been wonder what should I do with my life? I'm not sure if i can do better in future but it's confused when it seem like I got lost in life, walking alone in path which leading mie to nowhere. I got scared but no one will understand. I never thought of entering the 'real' world this soon, facing problems n betraying from people surrounding mie. It's hard to keep those true friends. The one I used to call them friend leaving mie one by one in my life. It's hurt when you found out the one you trusted the most could betrayed your trust. As I tried to entered the real world, I've learnt that ANYTHING will happen no matter what and I need to be strong enough to face it with my own strength. It's like I need to make up my mind which is right or wrong and facing the consequences alone. I'm so confuse and I'm so aimless. I'm afraid if i make the wrong decision and I'll regret it for a lifetime. What's the most hurting mie was I dint get any support from my family. No one will understand because no one cares.....

Introduction

2009-03-09T21:39:00.000-07:00

Well, I've finally get myself a blog (can't believe i did it huh? ) haha. As usual, there're nothing special about mie. Im just an ordinary 17 years old young teenage ( birthday not over yet this year so im consider still young for this year HOHOHO )who was kinda lost after my graduation and I'm currently working to kill time. ( imagine how many eggs I can lay if I keep staying at home ) But for some reason, I always wanted to stay at home after I start working and I seriously need to get an enough sleep. Curious? ( lol ) This is because I'm spending most of my time at work and it's already quite late when i reach home. Bet everyone knew this equation. [LIFE - ENTERTAINMENT = LIFELESS] (invented by myself lol)

So, I'm staying up late almost everynight to watch some movies or surf net which turn mie up like a dead fish the next morning [=='']

There're lots of ppl who told mie the advantages of working. Earn money, gain experiences, and the most important for girls are slimming down but I'm totally disagree about that cause i eat at night after working . ( imagine having those char keoy teow almost everynight >.<'' )

Gosh, speaking about food, I really love to eat and I eat a lot. (it's way too hard to resist it =x )

I'm always broke even I work, because I'm spending most of my money in food. Aww~ I really nida cut down on it....

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